Chef

PS. I made sweet potato fries & now I think I'm a chef.



So how often do I have to eat these for it to be an obsession? Because I can pretty much polish off 2 whole sweet potatos myself........in one sitting. Those things are dang near the size of a football.

Battle wound:

Wahhhhhhhhh, ouch.

XOXO,

KG

Doing

Totally doing this.....



XOXO,

KG

Heels

So my calves & feet ACHE when I'm NOT wearing heels.  Isn't this backward?  Years of 4-5 inch heels are taking its toll on me.

No, that doesn't mean I'm going to stop.

XOXO,

KG

Seriousness

Ok, but really, I did have something semi-important to blurb about today. 

As of recently, the company I work for has started expanding internationally ....at a pretty extreme rate.  We are getting larger offices in Manchester & opening new offices in Madrid & in a few months, somewhere equally as "cool" in Australia. 

Many of my peers at the company have expressed interest in traveling abroad & helping open these branches - all while living/working in a new country for a few years.   *Insert envy here*  The problem is - I can't figure out why I'm envious.  Do I really WANT to live in a foreign country I know nothing about for a year ....2 years?  I'm not sure.  Do I think it's a once in a lifetime experience that would teach me amazing things? Absolutely.

So that's where I stand.  I know if I really wanted to pursue these avenues I could express interest in it to the company & would most likely be allowed to follow my dreams across the pond for a year or two of wonderful adventures.  So why don't I ? 

I don't want the reason I go to be just because "everyone is" & "it would be cool".  I mean all of those things apply right away, but in all reality its a HUGE adjustment & a HUGE responsibility they are taking upon themselves.  They will miss their families, friends, weddings, births, & any number of "huge" life events while they are gone.  But is it worth it?  Possibly. 

My family & bf has recently pointed out that I dont necessarily always pursue something because I want to or am passionate about it - but many times because I want to be the best at it.  I want to be the BEST at everything & prove that I can do it.  I've applied for jobs just to know that I could get them & then turned them down.  Signed up for classes to complete, just to know that I could do it.  Become a representative for numerous projects just to show that I could be successful doing it. 

Don't get me wrong - I wouldnt continue doing these things if I didn't enjoy them to an extent.  I am very happy with my decision to sell Stella & Dot jewelry.  I believe in it.  I believe its beautiful.  & I KNOW I love jewelry.  I believe in my decision to become a licensed realtor.  I know its a smart decision. I know it could be useful in the future.

But a small part of me knows or wonders if I'm just doing these things to feel like I'm continually 'growing' as a person & continually 'improving' my life....

I said this to bf today:

Babe – I’m having a really hard time with everyone moving & going overseas & everything . I feel like I’m not doing “enough” in my life .  Like I’m taking the easy way out & not striving to achieve enough & go there & do that & be good at it.

He said:

That’s b/c you need a direction. You just see everything and want to be great at everything. Find a road and be the best damn driver on the road. Mine would be residential real estate in NE

Simple as that.  & you know what? I think he's right.  I just need to find that one thing (or many) that I love & am passionate about & be the best at that! Rather than continually being not satisfied with myself not "doing enough". 

Am I just pushing myself too hard? or am I really missing out on a great opportunity?  ahhhhh someone helpppppppp meeeeee.

Please.

XOXO,

KG

Update

Hi all ~
It's been awhile since I've last blurbed my feelings here & made you listen... Well lucky you, today's the day. 

Since I last updated you, I've had quite a busy schedule.  I FINALLY went home to meet my momma's kitty.

I may or may not have tried to steal her, then barter with my current kitty to get to keep her.  Unfortunately, none of the above acts worked. 

Also, bf & I started finishing up classes for our realtor's licences.  Bf builds houses & we finally decided that we should get smart & get licensed.  We aren't for sure if we will start selling anything right away, but better to take classes now - before we have a screaming kiddo to tend to in the future. 

Here we are, in case you missed how cute he is.

That's me wearing shorts on Easter weekend.  I. LOVE. SUNSHINE.  However, this is my only pair of shorts that fit.  While the rest of my body seems relatively the same size, it seems like I may have gotten a little(lot) bigger in the rear area. Welllll Helllllooooooo 25, nice to see you too.  Can't wait to turn 30 & see how things look then.  :/  I'll just not think about it & pretend I'm Kim K for now.

Yes, we are practically twins from behind...........

XOXO,

KG