*Update*

I take back my last post. I had one customer call in this afternoon. Wouldnt want them to get transferred to the wrong person because I couldnt do it. Whew, glad I didn't have a drink over lunch.

KG

Craving

So I really want to drink one of these right now.

In case you're unfamiliar with drinks & subsequently, fun, this is a Kahlua & cream drink.  Mine would probably be spiked with a little vodka.  Maybe even a little Pepsi depending on if I felt like a tall glass or a short glass. 

Just kidding, I'd add vodka either way.

PS - Yes, its 3:30 in the afternoon.




PPS - No I don't care & stand my ground that I would like to drink one of these anyway.



PPPS - Try all you want......I dont feel guilty.



Bye.

XOXO,
KG

Sugar High

Please don't tell me I'm the only one who ate 20 cookies this weekend?  I was even consciously thinking about not eating too much, so I think I tricked my mind into thinking that smaller increments were better. Well, THEY'RE NOT.  After consuming one cookie with lunch, sitting down & getting up 5 different times to get a "few" appetizers, & standing over the shrimp platter - I think its safe to say I had my fill.  Let's not get into the after church goodies.  Or those that I brought home for that matter.  I think I shall only consume vegetables for 10 days to rid my body of all that sugar! 

yeah right.  It is a nice thought though. 

This year was an especially great Christmas! I think it helped that I feel extra thankful to be here & know that I have angels everyday.  Who wouldnt be thankful after that?  We celebrated the season by heading back to my hometown on Friday night & participating in an "Ugly Sweater" contest - which basically turns into a "free-for-all-wear-anything-ugly-and-slightly-Christmas-y".

Case in point: my mother, in the photo below.  Does that look like a "sweater" to you?  Didn't think so.

That's my bro's pretty gf Courtney on the left, then my bro, my Momma, ME, & the bf

We are kinda cute, but not neaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrly as ugly/Christmas-y as the others.  A couple actually knitted an entire shirt/skirt & man's vest for the win! I'm never going to attempt that, but I will go in & have a good time with the fellow sweater freaks.

Although it was a bit of a rough morning, we had to head to Grandma's for gifts.  We dressed up realllllllll nice because we were going to Christmas church service after.

I got fancy & put a blazer on. Whoooo.  That's my sis on the left, then the bro, his pretty gf, ME, & the bf again.  Courtney thinks she looks like a midget.  I think she's the cutest little midget I've ever seen.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now just imagine that in card form & coming especially to you in the mail.  That's our cute little fam on Christmas Eve.  Whew, that was a breeze to send out.  I think I'll try that every year.

After church service (in which the bf had trouble reading the hymnals....we'll get into that another time) we ate some soup, probably another cookie -I stopped counting at this point & just let the sugar hit my veins - & headed home to open gifts with just the few of the us.  I got the boyfriend a trip to see his fave hockey team in Chicago.  Thank God we changed into sweats, because looking pretty all day was really taking its toll on me. 

Us - in sweats. Hallelujah!

When I first saw this picture I thought, "ohhh he looks so happy & cute".  Now, 3 days later, I have yet to see him in anything BUT this jersey.  The cute-ness is wearing off.  If you see him, let him know he can take it off now.

XOXO,

KG

Co-Workers

Mine are the best.

THESE are the lovely ladies I get to hang out with everyday.

& not only are they gorgeous (aren't they though?), but they are some the nicest & most genuine women I could ask for in my life.  Surrounding myself with these ladies gives me an instant support group, an ear to listen, & advice from people who have been there before. They are not only co-workers, but real, true friends.  (I mean for real, they brought me soup when I was in my turtle shell, what else can you ask for?).

XOXO,

KG

Some people I wish were here this holiday*

hehehe, how cute are they?

These are my Momma's parents.  She looks just like them!  I remember all the dinners we had around their table & all the time my grandpa would scoop the "gross things" off my plate, so I wouldnt have to finish them.  They were both such caring & sweet individuals & loved each other like crazy until their dying days.  Ahhh, a real life love story!

& here is my Papa's dad on the last Christmas we had with him!

When we were younger & was a rough & tough man, but by the time this was taken I think us grandkids had broken him down alittle.  He loved us & he said it (a big step). Each time I came home he'd always tell me not to forget to invite him to my wedding....& ask when I was getting married.  I'll definitely invite him when the day comes & hopefully he'll be there watching me... Just from a different view =)

Just reflecting on my life this morning & how incredibly blessed I am this holiday season.  I know everyone says that, but really...I really am.

XOXO,

KG





Pathetic

I'm sad to report that the most exciting thing that happened to work today was my favorite pen running out of ink.  & there is no more in the supplies closet. WE SWITCHED BRANDS.  Who does that?  & why do I care so much about this type of pen?  Its sad really. 



But just in case you're weirdly obsessed with doodling like me.....Its a Papermate 1.2M in black.  I highly recommend.

 *Although I wish they were, no Papermate is not paying me for this post*. 

Only about 300,000 more followers to go before that starts happening. Tell your friends yo! I want some free pens!

XOXO,

KG

BIG day(s)

I have a BIG couple of days coming up.  & I can't even tell you about them.  Aaaaaaahhhh, my heart is beating fast & my palms are getting a little sweaty (Ok, not really, but I felt like everyone describes it that way when they are a bit nervous?)  I'll be back in a few days with updated news. Hopefully. Cross your fingers & toes for me.

XOXO,
KG

Feel. The. Burn.

Ok so, if you've been reading, you know that I had a major back surgery about 3 months ago.  & because of that back surgery I haven't been able to do any sort of work outs.  This week, I started to slowly ease back into my fitness routine (with the Ok of my physical therapist) & HOLLLLLLY MOLY MY THIGHS BURN.  I am walking more funny now that I ever did after my surgery.  That's a bit embarassing. 

However, you wouldn't believe the morale boost its given me!  My body (minus my thighs..........just kidding) LOVE the endorphines! Whew! I'm 100% more chipper (& probably more annoying) than usual. YES, Yes, yes.... Soon I shall look like this:

Then I'll die & go to beautiful body heaven.

XOXO,
KG

Moments

Have you ever had one of those moments...a semi-sort-of wake up call?  There have been all sorts of moments throughout my life that I might classify this way, but none as big or realistic is the one I seem to be stuck in now.  I posted awhile ago about a car accident that I had been in.  & about those angels looking out for me that day.  & how lucky I felt to be here & to be blessed with such great, caring, generous people in my life. 

But you know what I didn't tell you?  The other emotions I felt.  The ones I felt weren't worthy of expression.  The ones I thought people would look down upon me for sharing.  I was thankful.  I AM thankful.  But I would be lying if I said there wasn't a few moments where I was mad.  Or angry.  Or wondering why I had to deal with a moment like that?  Hadn't I had enough?  Almost 15 months of depression, doctors, weight gain/loss, & alot of crying.  That's what I was in the middle of... & on top of that I get to lose most of my possessions & gain a few rods in my back?  It just didn't seem fair. 

I even had a moment where I was sad about the photos & ideas I had saved to my phone.  How sad. & how selfish.  I remember thinking that I had so many inspiring quotes, books, & photos saved.  Things that really were a pathway or a landmarker of sorts for the last year and a half of my life.  All gone.  I felt like a shell of a person.  A whole new one in fact.  One who felt incredibly lucky, but didn't know why. 

There have been many things that I've learned throughout my life & that experience particularly.  The most mind boggling thought I've been dealing with lately is how to find a balance of happiness in my personal life & career.  Growing up, I was extremely motivated & in order to enjoy an activity I wanted to be the best.  I thought this meant it would carry to my education & career past high school & I would be climbing the corporate ladder in no time.  Throughout a few of those college years I had moments where I really took time to realize what was important to me.  Did I need to travel to every state in the US? Did I need to marry a worldly man? Did I need to make lots of money? 

No.  Although I can't really say that these thoughts held any bearing on my actions until lately....& even now, I'm struggling.  Do you want to continue with a job that I'm not 100% passionate about everyday?  What do I WANT to do?  I can't answer that question simply & therein lies the problem.  How can I satisfy myself when I'm chasing something I'm not even aware of? 

"What do you like to do?" What could she possibly say?  That she'd like to sit in her garden all afternoon with her Jane Austen novels?  You couldn't make a living from that, could you?..."Well," she paused, "I guess something wonderful.  Something inspiring.  Something that means you're not always looking at the clock, wondering how long it is before you can go home."

That is exactly what I want as well.  I dont know what that something inspiring is yet, but I don't doubt that I will get there.  I take my car accident as a learning experience of sorts.  A chance to start over after over a year of wasted time.  A clean slate.  Now I just have to figure out what to do with it.

XOXO,
KG

PS - Sorry for the diary post.  The thoughts were jumbled in my head & wouldnt get out, so I had to write them down.  If they don't make sense, come back tomorrow.  I'll probably be back to my cynical, sarcastic, giddy, over-the-top pukey lovey self. See you then.